I Love You

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A lot of people don’t know this…bc I don’t really share it.
During Christmas of 2010 we were living in the south and my only sister wanted us to go visit her in New York.
The weather was bad, so I told her we would make the trip in the spring.
And on January 4th 2011…
My sister was called to Heaven.
There are no words that make that loss seem less hurtful.
And maybe some would say that I…
Would be right in never celebrating any holiday again.
But am reminded at how much she loved me.
How she loved everyone.
If I could give you all a gift it would be this…
Moments are temporary…
Then they are memories.
Do not leave room in your life for regret.
Do not allow the idea that you have less than other ppl destroy you.
Appreciate every moment…
Every breath…and smile
Knowing you too are loved.
I hope each and everyone of you know
How much you mean to me and our family.
I wish you a happy holiday filled with light and love.
I love you all.
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Worth The Wait

He tells you he loves you and you’re the only one

How all the girls are having sex and it’s fun

You believe him and give in to temptation at will

Now everyone knows and that makes you ill

Broken promises and heartbreak after sex too soon

Abstinence is the goal, don’t let peer pressure fool you

Your body is a temple, treat it with care

Every girl isn’t having sex, let’s make that clear

Education and goals are the key

Once an adult and married, enjoy your husband blissfully

What About Me?

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What About Me?

There is a time and place for everything, this is an old adage; but it is no less true at this moment.

The most sage advice, I can give you, at this moment, is to stay connected to all things, but be attached to nothing. This may have you scratching your head, but be patient…I will never lead you astray.

You love deeply, without question. However you may need to have a heart to heart with yourself…every single day. Every day you should ask yourself, am I doing this for “them” (whoever “them” is) or are you doing it for self. Be careful, because I need you to be brutally honest with yourself.

Sometimes, even when we are doing things for other people…we are really only doing it for ourselves. Let me give you an example, just so you won’t think I have lost it.

You can have someone that you are very close to, and you may give that person something (monetary or not); now when you tell this story to others, you are brought to tears…and you very well maybe shedding tears, on behalf of the situation that your loved one is facing. However, if you did it strictly for them, why would you feel the need to share it with anyone else? In fact, if you do something for another person…once it is done…you should let it go. All too often, when we even hold onto stories where we have helped another person or group of persons, all that we really do is keep a running tab, of who did more for whom. This is a most unkind behavior.

If we are truly doing things for the sake of another’s well being; there should be no reason why we would need to keep track.

Be connected to all…persons, places and things…yet attached to nothing. You are not your actions. In all that you do, you must be able to picture your Creator…standing beside you. Think for a moment, in the time when the world was being created…was there room for ego? The ego can be a powerful tool, and there are times when it can be used to help others; but understand that when our ego is being used to make us feel bigger and better than anyone else…it is working against creation.

Look at all situations from above, do not allow your own personal feelings or ideas about how the outcome will affect you, alter the way you conduct yourself. Think about all situations, as if you have nothing to lose or gain. It is sad that this even needs to be said, but unfortunately, the very first person, that typically comes to mind, in any given circumstance…is self.

You must learn how to put other people ahead of you, in this regard. You must want more for others than you want for yourself. You know what you would like to have for yourself…want more for everyone else. If you want $100 then you MUST want $500 for them. This is truly caring for another person.

We must step aside from the “let me break you off a little something” mentality. Stop breaking off fractions of what it is that you have; if you truly want to give…give it all away. I know this may feel like I am trying to steal your oxygen, but please listen. The greatest Saints in history, never thought of self. Mother Theresa of Calcutta, gave her entire fortune away, and lived alongside the people who were truly struggling. She did not do this to get world fame, but to learn humility. She gave her entire fortune to the needy and less fortunate; yet she never appeared to look like she was doing without. In fact, when asked why she smiles everyday…she said because I find Jesus everywhere. What she learned, that most of us struggle with is the fact that you can find your Creators fingerprints on each and every thing…how can that be anything less than perfection?

This part may hurt a little, because now I have to tell you…you are not the most important person in the world. We have been taught so many lies…that we now believe they are the truth. As women, we have been led astray, by other women. That, holier than thou mentality must end…let it end with you. You are a bright and beautiful being…you are definitely that, but if you wear that idea like a tiara…it can become a crown of thorns.

When does beauty fail to be beautiful? When it is used to degrade another living thing. For instance, oh I love her hair; I mean it isn’t as bouncy as mine is, but it still looks good.

Do you see what just happened? You took something that was never about you at all…and you made it all about you. How can a person feel good about themselves, after hearing a statement like that?

This life is not a matrix, nothing is that complicated; but you do have to lay down the idea that you come first. Living life out oud does not mean to be the most boisterous. It means to walk amongst all of creation, knowing that we all have a divine purpose and your purpose may very well be…to just be kind. That doesn’t mean to be kind when you are having a good day or when you get that raise at work. It means above all else, put others first. This also doesn’t mean to play the “Have a blessed day” card.

Do not misinterpret what I am saying to you. We should hope that every one has a blessed day, in fact if they are breathing…in fact- they are being blessed. You know exactly what I am referring to. The tone in which you are speaking, the one that says “You don’t matter to me and my world”…that “Have a blessed day” card. Understand that your job here, is to love everyone. It seems so simple, doesn’t it? Who couldn’t love everyone?

Well, that means that you have to find the most trying of people…loveable.

You have to be able to look at the homeless man urinating on the street, just as loveable as the newborn baby. It means that you have to love, even the man that walked into your place of business- with the intention of robbing you. You have to find a way to find yourself in each and every one. You may think that the woman showing her ass on facebook is nothing like you…after all, you would never post half naked pictures. What if I told you that like you…she lives with grief that time is still trying to heal? What if the attention she is seeking is just so she won’t have to think about the memories she can no longer make with that person…can you really see who she is now?

Life is full of opportunities, don’t miss them, just because they come wrapped in a ribbon that makes you feel negative. This is a lesson that will be hard for most people to learn, after all we do have our preferences. However, life isn’t about you. You did not create it…it created you. You must humble yourself and know that all that you should have…you will have.

Stop walking past the very gifts that this world has to give you; simply because you are looking for something that you find more attractive or suitable.

I will leave you with one final thought today, you do not need to clear your head…you instead…must clear your heart

 

Promises

 

 

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In my silent time today

Where I talk with my Source

I asked are we all loved

The response was yes, of course

Then I pondered for a moment

If that is truly the case

When did we create the lie

When did we fall off base

When did we decide that we

Could treat another so bad

What gives us the authority

To make others feel so sad

Why must we tear apart

The hopes and dreams others create

That…I heard intently

Is a lifelong debate

Mankind did not seek permission

From any higher power when

He decided to enslave and maim

Starting way back then

No one sought enlightenment

When evil came to mind

For that wrong which was done

Does not begin from the divine

For to hold back or desecrate

A man or group of the like

Is similar to searching for sunrise

But only during the night

It’s as backwards as

Placing horse behind a cart

Like playing make believe

With a most fragile heart

The problem worsens said my Source

When we make no moves to the latter

When my children have forgotten

All that really does matter

Like a smile out of nowhere

Rain making plants grow

Loving our fellow man

Allowing that love to show

We can hardly see the light

When the homeless are blamed

For our inability to reach out

Like Creation’s going insane

But if we do not wake up soon

The world will continue to create

The problems it has bred

Just more evil choices we’ll make

Learn to love immediately

For the seed of God runs deep

And the cost of sin is higher

Than any grudge we keep

Reach out for one another

Remember it may be only one hand

But like the great earthly beaches

It all started with a grain of sand

Create a chain of understanding

A tie that binds from your core

Show the love of your ancestors

And that of theirs before

So in your moments of silence

When our Creator touches you deep

Remember it’s not what you say

But the promises you should keep

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Enough

You and I fuss and fight constantly

And it’s draining all of my energy

Our relationship use to have so much stability

Fearful of this emotional roller coaster and where it’s taking me

 

To dark places I’ve never been before

Like when your hands were wrapped around my neck

My world became black and death was near my door

Blood vessels broken in both eyes

 

No apology…had me at the ER lying

To my family, friends, and staff

I should be ashamed of myself…defending your secrets

Of violent tantrums you always take out of me

 

I’ve had enough of this pain being inflicted on me

It’s time to stop you once and for all

DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?!!!

Even if I remain a prisoner surrounded by four walls

 

 

To The Beautiful People

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To all the beautiful people
Remember that today is tomorrows memory
Remember that even the darkness needs the LIGHT to exist
Remember that once someone had to be patient with you
That love is not a thing u do…but WHO u are
Remember that instead of seeking that perfect mate
Be that PERFECT YOU
Everything and everyone is not for you…
And that is okay
Love with your whole heart
You will never be disappointed
Love never fails…
Failure is an illusion
You have already won
The only war that you are fighting is against yourself
Today…
Choose YOU
Remember that our Creator would not create you…
With the intention for you to lose
But I will remind you that when we see negative things in others
It is only because we see them in ourselves
People are a mere reflection of how u really see yourself
There will be those who will constantly test you…
That’s okay
It will only make you better
Understand that the light which shines on your face…
With all its warmth and love
Actually came from inside yourself
And always…in all ways KNOW
YOU ARE LOVE…
And I appreciate you all…

The Power of Emotions

Love is a verb…people tend to forget

Quickly to speak it…not meaning it

Not realizing how it will affect

The other person…playing on their emotions

And once the façade is revealed, the heart is broken

The tears are overflowing and one blames themselves

The heart is no longer in despair…anger takes over

Followed by rage and vengeance

The mind has lost its stability

To comprehend the actions that lies ahead

And physically hurt the liar for their pain

It’s too late…the damage is done

The broken hearted is no longer the victim

But is labeled as legally insane

Detained from the ones who truly love them

Because of three powerful words

That people always use in vain

I LOVE YOU!!!!

 

 

Pressure

If you think peer pressure only exits in teens, you’re wrong

Being an adult in this fucked up world can be cold

A black woman, who’s constantly criticized by her black king

If it isn’t her kinky hair, full figure, or because she doesn’t get nasty in the sheets

Constantly being put on the back burner for other races

Once he’s moved up in the world to high places

So we constantly try to fit in with European standards

From hair weaves, relaxers, and coloring our hair

Bleaching our skin, pounds of makeup, and cosmetic surgery

Once that has been achieved you still continue to throw dirt on me

Damn, that’s too much work for me

So I will continue self-love and my king will find me

I embrace my melanin skin and kinky hair

My full lips, curvy hips, and round derriere

No peer pressure exists when you know your worth

You don’t have to devalue your real existence to be in his world

So love yourself and embrace your black beauty

You’re a black queen, never forget you are a rare commodity

Victory

Some days are good and some days are bad

As I reflect on the time spent living in the past

Being bitter, angry, unforgiving, and miserable

I end up hurting the people around me whom intentions are genuine

Do they deserve my wrath of anger I give them

And once I’ve realize my wrongdoings, I beg for forgiveness

Quinniece, darling, what could make you be this way?

You are an intelligent and beautiful lady what more can I say

 

As I look into the mirror to my surprise

Standing before me was a woman who has lost her stride

NO MORE as I shouted and broke the mirror into pieces

My past will not become my future and get the best of me

Dusting myself off as I pray to God above

God please enter my heart and fill it again with love

Joy, Forgiveness, Happiness, and Care

And let the beautiful, strong woman within come and declare….her VICTORY!

Do All Lives Matter?

Do All Lives Matter?

We keep saying that they do

And some may take this as a retaliation

For the negativity received from the Black lives matter campaign…

But honestly lets think about this…

Do ALL lives matter?

Does a pedophile matter?

Does a murderer matter?

Does a Muslim matter?

Does an Atheist matter?

If you are gay …do you matter?

If you are transgender…?

So while it may pump up people

And make them feel like they are a part of something

Something larger than themselves…

But really…

If all of the above DON’T Matter…

Then both campaigns are destined to fail..

Until we love all people…

Even the most unsavory amongst us…

We ALL…

Every one of us

HAVE FAILED…

We only had one job to do…

And that job is not to murder people and call it police work

It is not to berate or demean other people who don;t look like us

It is not to hate or develop apathy…

It is to love and support one another…

What is more important than smearing a hate campaign?
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