As I sit here
All I can do is cry.
My smile has faded.
My happiness is gone.
My reason for living thru this pain is becoming irrelevant.
What’s wrong?
Well, What isn’t wrong?
My family abandoned me
My urge for intimacy is strong but can’t seem to find someone I can trust.
Someone told me I was misunderstood.
Others that don’t know me think I’m a bitter bitch that has a major attitude.
I’m just going thru things that I choose to bottle up.
I hate telling my feelings.
I hate being a good friend knowing I can’t trust most of the people I call friends.
I’m on the verge of destruction.
I am so hard on others because I am extremely hard on myself.
I won’t cry in front of you because I hate judgement but yet I can take it.
Love?
What the FUCK is that?
Please!
Leave me alone.
I don’t need someone else with broken hope.